my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
woot math's completed, but my work pace's still too slow. im jes completing one assignment per day. i used to be able to complete three, but maybe it's the accumulation of weariness that's slowing me down. i miss the first three months of jc. that was the best time of my life. ahhh ate a sakae with my mom today and then it brought back memories of ke'rayzae. how we squeezed like eight people at one table, and ming hao's voracious appetite, stoner's snide comments, bo xian's ahem, bottomless pit for a stomach. ha ha and all the correction of pronounciations. i miss bishan, even j8 now. :(
on a lighter note, tomorrow's a friday! woohoo, but then there's econs make up at 4, like what the hell. i have three hours to stone in school. guess i'll start being the full-fledged mugger tommorrow.
eddison's complaining about how rj's so boring to me now, and here i am missing it like nuts. sigh, the paradox of life.
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